Tuesday, December 7, 2010

my hope secures

Once upon a long time ago, I sent Sara Joy this beautiful necklace. We'd never even met, but I saw it and knew that she needed it, as a reminder that hope IS always there, even when hidden.

When I was home with sick Tommy last week, I checked the mail and sighed in dismay at the stack of Christmas cards, knowing I'd yet to even order mine. I saw Sara Joy's return address and made a mental note to yell at her for taking the time to address Christmas cards when she should be napping.

To my surprise when I opened it, a very familiar necklace fell out, along with a note. I had to sit down to read it, so taken aback, so filled with awe at the thoughtfulness of the human heart. She said it was mine to borrow as long as I needed it. Until I could find hope on my own again.

I haven't taken it off since, except to shower and sleep. Wearing it around my neck, a necklace made by loving hands of one friend, passed on to the loving hands of another is like wearing a constant hug, a constant shoulder to cry on. I haven't felt like myself lately. I've had clouds in my head and it's been hard to find the words to admit that I'm not me, that I'm lost and lonely and scared.

But today, with the subtle reminder, the guiding pressure around my neck... I'm thinking I won't need this necklace much longer.

16 comments:

Lyndsay said...

I'm glad you have people like Sara Joy in your life and I hope you're feeling more like yourself soon.
((hugs))

Cameron said...

I have been so busy that I haven't been on Twitter hardly at all and I'm weeks behind on blog reading... but I just happened to see your tweet with this link and I can't tell you how glad I am. :) I love this so very much. :) xoxoxo

Melissa said...

What a beautiful necklace and a beautiful friend who knew that you needed it back for a while.

God Bless, I hope you start feeling like yourself again soon!

Sara Joy said...

It wasn't even a choice, it had to be.

Such The Spot said...

What a blessing of a friend. You are so loved. Even when you can't find yourself through the haze of fear. Especially then.

Marianne said...

Love love love to you.

Adventures In Babywearing said...

This is beautiful.

Steph

love said...

oh, beautiful.
you are so loved. i pray that relief is coming for you so soon.

Hyacynth said...

Goosebumps.
I'm so glad for this.

Kate at Big City Belly said...

What an awesome friend she is (and you are, to her, too).

Erin said...

I love love love love love this post.

Heather said...

so lovely and beautiful. Reading this gives me hope and reinforces that these friendships that we form online are real, sometimes even realer than the ones in which we see the people often as they know our hearts & souls when we chose to share them here.

((Hugs))

keli @ kidnapped by suburbia said...

amazing. both of you are light years beyond amazing. and you are so loved.

Kaycee said...

Lovely. So very very lovely. I am so glad it has helped you.

Becky said...

I know I'm late to this party but oh how I love this...

Becca @ Our Crazy Boys said...

Wow... friends like that are so hard to find.

xoxo