Slowly, steadily, I'm working on my Body Restoration book through Brave Girls Club. (Registration is still open for the course I'm taking--I cannot recommend it enough!)
Before I started, I was overwhelmed by all that was included and was so worried that I wouldn't have time to do it. So much so that I almost quit before I even began. I'm so glad I didn't. I've found out that I can carve out a little time each night, especially if I set up Luke and Tommy at the table with paint, too. We're all crafting together, almost every night, and I love it.
This week's really struck a chord with me. It is about loving you for you and not spending your time measuring yourself against others. I'm so bad about this. I might leave the house feeling good about myself, but put me in a group of women, and I'll decide why I'm not good enough. Someone will have better hair than me. Better boots. Look cuter in jeans. Thinner thighs. Much better hair. The list goes on and on. It's unfair to me and it's unfair to everyone else, because they didn't leave their house simply to become a measuring stick against which I judge myself. As I'm devaluing myself, I'm also devaluing the women around me. They are more than just their bodies, too.
Last night, I worked on this collage. I looked at each of the women; some pictures provided by Brave Girls Club, others that I'd cut out of a magazine.
It was still drying when I took the picture. It's not the best picture, either, but the purpose was to assign these labels to pictures of other women. Not labels about why she's better than me, but labels about how these women are real human beings who were put on this earth to be more than just a body. To hope, dream, cry, laugh, and simply live. It's a simple realization. Not exactly rocket science, but I can't fathom why it took the simple act of putting words and pictures to paper to strike me. I can't say that I'll never judge myself against others, but I'm going to try to be more cognizant of this--to realize that it doesn't matter if someone wears smaller jeans or has cuter hair, it just matters that we're both humans who are worth so much more.