I hate to feel this way, but I feel like I'm starting to burn out on teaching, and it's WAY too early in the year for that! I'm just not feeling it this year, and I'm not sure why. I thought this year would be easier because I'd already left Luke once, and because I wouldn't be spending every break--including lunch--hooked to a breast pump (YAY). That said, I was wrong! See, it's a lot harder to leave when Luke is wide awake saying, Bye bye Mama! He's just so much fun and so full of life that I want nothing more than to spend every waking moment with him. I also feel like I don't have the strong relationship with my students that I did last year. Last year, I joked around with students a lot, gave them nicknames, and other fun things. This year, I don't quite have that. I hope I will get there with some students, though. We also have a very different schedule. Last year, we taught from 7:30 to noon with no breaks, but then we basically had the afternoon off. This was great! This year, however, we have two breaks in the morning, then teach from 10:50 to 2:45. I'm not such a fan of that. I don't enjoy eating lunch at 10:30 in the morning, and I feel SO tired afterward.
Mostly, though, I feel like everyone in my school is feeling the burn out, too, which doesn't help. Last year was the first year in this BRAND NEW building. For most of us, we had new administrators, and although many of us already knew each other from the other middle school, there were some new teachers and all new support staff. It was fun. Everyone was pumped and ready to go, and I definitely didn't miss our old school one bit. This year, the honeymoon is definitely over. Everyone seems negative, quicker to get annoyed, and definitely less interested in doing things as a staff. It's a shame, too, because last year, our staff was really special. This year, everyone seems more interested in running out the door as quickly as possible. And hey, I get that because I'm right there, too, but on some level, I think it is important for co-workers to have a relationship outside of work. I think it builds trust, friendship, and it makes everyone more likely to lend a helping hand when needed.
I just hope that everyone can find a common ground, myself included. We need to be on top of our game for our students, and if I can't get there soon, I'm going to be using a lot of sick days!